Grief is a journey...

I just wish it would be a LOT shorter of a journey. I am having a hard time dealing with the fact that it has almost been a year since my "journey" began and I still have so much deep hurt. Yet, I also have moments of PURE JOY and even feel giddy at times. I know this can only be from God! For these times, I am so grateful. They allow me to continue to seek Him and work on building that lifelong Perfect Trust that I so desire to have. It is the dark and tearful (or should I say sobbing) moments that I struggle with experiencing. In some ways, I know they are healthy and normal, but in other ways, I feel guilty for having them. Yet I also have a strange desire to hang on to them because I don't want to ever lose that feeling of missing a HUGE part of my life. Rich was a much too important part of my life to be forgotten so quickly.

I am praying this blog will be a healthy way for me to track the healing process of God working on my heart. It is not going to be just about my grief, but also about the DAILY TRUST we must have to experience God's bountiful blessings!