Putting the Pride Aside

It was on Friday that I finally decided and actually pursued the first steps to counseling. I made a phone call at the beginning of it all. The counselor was nice enough to email and leave a message or two on my phone...but I never got back to her. I think I was scared ~ scared of what I might actually discover about myself and scared to admit that I HAD a problem and that I was experiencing pain more excruciating than I had ever felt before. I began Grief Share (a Christian support group/bible study) at my church and assumed that was enough.

Well, it has been almost a year, and though I HAVE been healing and growing, I know there is so much more that needs to be uncovered and faced. I just can't seem to bring it all to the surface on my own. It is much easier to stuff it and then cry it all out when I am alone late at night. So, it is time. Time to realize that I can't do it on my own. God even commands that we seek counsel and wisdom from others. So, I am going to begin the process. I took the first step and made a contact.
Now I need to follow through.

I plan to tell my Bible study group so I have some accountability. Just thought I should get it out on my blog too so I can look back and hopefully see some more progress in my life.