An effort to praise YOU

Today would have been the day I celebrated NINE years of marriage to Rich Heyroth. I woke up WIDE awake at five am with my mind going full speed ahead. Strangely, and yet not really, I feel a lot of peace. I know that is God just reminding me that I can trust Him that today is going to be a good day, in spite of my missing person that should be laying beside me in my bed this morning. As I am sitting here listening to the rain, I am reminded of some lyrics from a group I used to listen to way back in college, Watermark...

I wish I could roll like the thunder, to leave the earth below in wonder
In effort to praise You
I wish I could fall like the summer rain and every drop would sing Your name
In effort to praise You
In effort to praise You
But I'm such a limited creature
And my words can only paint so many pictures
But somewhere I'm sure I read that I am treasured over all creation
So I know that I must try
Gloria, glory in the highest
Forever I will hide myself in Thee
Oh, gloria
Glory in the highest
Forever I will hide myself in Thee

So, I WILL try to praise Him with all that I am and all that is within me because I still have SO much to praise Him for each and every day!

Thank you, Lord, for the seven years of marriage I WAS given and all that you taught me about love and our limited view of what it means to love someone unconditionally truly means. Though I may have only been given seven years of marriage with an incredible man, I would have rather had seven than none at all. Thank you for using Rich in my life to draw me closer to you and helping me see that it is truly only YOU that can fill me up completely and no human will ever meet that need. Thanks for the bonus love I DID receive from him and the many many ways he spoiled me and taught me not to be so legalistic with my relationship with YOU...reminding me often that he, like you, loved me because of WHO I was and not what I did. Thank you for teaching me to trust you more and more each day with every detail of my life. Lord you ARE glorious!! You are bigger and more majestic than I could ever imagine and I truly want to fall flat on my face when I think of coming before you. And yet, also, every ounce within me wants to get up and shout and dance and sing to you because You ARE an awesome God and I love you with every piece of my heart!!

Gloria!!